I had mixed thoughts when I decided to start 'Reviv'

I threw it around in my head for months before I started this blog and business. But probably not for the reasons you would think.

Youtube

I was watching Youtube last night and i saw a venture capitalist that I had met at a tech event in Kiev in about 2012.

His fund had done really well and he was quite well known in Europe.

But I also remember the arrogance he had when I tried to talk to him briefly at the event. I was losing my voice constantly those days and often going through headaches and a lot of muscle tightness.

But I really wanted to meet him so I worked up the courage to walk up to him.

He treated my approach with a lot of contempt and blew me off after about a minute of light chatting. In part because my voice was barely audible over the loud room.

And here I was seeing him 12 years later. He was perhaps in his late 40’s like me.

But this time i was far from angry… in fact I was smiling as i watched him.

Because the arrogant bastard’s neck was gone and his body was a big twisted mess. And i knew what that meant.

It meant his neurological system and cognitive function were degrading. It meant his physical health issues were piling up.

He was speeding down that highway that gets darker and darker. A highway I traversed multiple times but then came back from.

And all the money he’d made and all the things he thought he accomplished were gonna matter less and less. Because that’s just how this shit works.

I feel good helping folks these days

Folks that are curious about Reviv sometimes chat with me online or ask to give me a call. And I enjoy talking with them and helping them.

I know that these things are going to help them.

Not think.

I know.

Because i’ve been in this game a long time.. and i understand how it works.

Some of you might still be skeptical.

But in time.. you will see that I am right about most things that I say on this blog.

How do i know?

Because of the patterns.

I have a pretty analytical/logical mind… and i’ve been following these patterns for so long (both on myself and others) that i consider it almost mathematically impossible for me to be wrong about most of the core things I say on here.

It’s kind of like statistical sampling. Once you’ve seen the data consistently tell the same story in a sizeable enough sample… you can feel pretty confident that it is true of the entire population. Because of the math.

And you will see this to be the case in the coming years.

But don’t put me on a pedestal…. I never claimed to be a saint

When i talk to these folks some of them thank me and act as if I am saving them.

They’ve been through many years of pain and suffering and they feel hope that now there is something that can help them where all their previous attempts had failed.

And that new thing is going to change their fate. Perhaps take them back to the path that they’d once been on and hoped they’d be on.

Honestly i feel really good about having that effect on people.

I really do.

Deep inside me there is a very good person. The same good person that I was before any of this stuff happened.

But at the same time… I also know I am a bit of an emotional shell at this point. Like a robot.

I had to become that. In order to get back up again after being knocked down so many times this past decade.

In the past decade as I was figuring this stuff out I moved my family from Vietnam to Boston to Moscow to Bangkok. Each time I moved i had hope for me and my family that we’d have a nice, stable life.

But each time this health stuff tore that away from me. And I had to face my wife and kid like a failure.

A once very proud person that at various points in this journey when i was not doing well… just couldn’t function properly.

It was painful. But I got used to it.

I tucked all that pain deep inside somewhere and locked it up. And i just kept iterating and marching forward. Till eventually my luck changed and I figured this stuff out.

Now the game’s changing… I don’t need to make excuses.

These days I do circles around most people without trying. My brain feels like a motor with an endless supply of fuel.

And with the folks that mocked me when i was down… part of me still wants revenge.

I want to watch them fall apart. I want to watch these biomechanics dismantle them the way it had dismantled me once upon a time.

I want to see the pain in their eyes and know that I ‘could’ help them. But make the choice not to.

There are a number of individuals that in my view hit me when i was down this past decade.

Some of them mistakenly did things like braces or invisalign. Or are simply aging at an accelerated rate because they are grinding their teeth or never developed correctly to begin with.

And I honestly enjoy checking in on them from time to time.

Under my breath I whisper to them… “You thought you understood how the end game in this thing we call life works, but guess what? You didn’t.”

When I started Reviv I gameplayed it out

You see when I started Reviv I had a lot of hesitation. But probably not for the reasons you would have guessed.

I figured it would either get popular or it wouldn’t.

But you see.. even if it didn’t get popular i would still consider it a victory.

Because i knew that what i had learned would make the coming decades very good ones for me. I’d continue to be very healthy and seem as if age just bounced off of me.

Whereas all these folks that had told me i was wrong or had hit me when i was down would be falling apart. Getting uglier, fatter, and spending more and more time in hospitals.

And there is an element of personal victory in that for me, which you just wouldn’t understand unless you lived the last decade in my shoes.

And on the otherhand if I succeeded and this stuff became popular…well then eventually this thing mushrooms up into something that even the folks i did not want to help also get exposure to it.

And potentially use it to reverse their ill fate.

Which would essentially reverse a victory that I was going to enjoy these coming years.

But in the end… I decided to choose the world over my personal revenge.

And so the Reviv journey began :)